A few years ago, I wrote a blog with this same title. I have always loved this title and I find it fitting for May’s blog topic. In case you didn’t know, where I live the old April/May saying is backwards. Our flowers bloom in April and May brings about almost biblical type flooding. We’ve had quite a bit of rain this past week and that’s what brought this title to mind.
May is a hard teacher month. There is a lot to do to wind down the school year. To say it can get hectic and tense is an understatement. Especially this year with making the choice to take on all of sixth grade ELAR.
That being said, I’m almost done with alllllll the grading! But, there are other things sitting on the horizon of summer that must be figured out. Our school has summer school. I’ve never worked summer school, but now I find myself going, do I, don’t I….it’s a whole thing in my head.
On top of all that, summer is my biggest time to write and work on my current project. Not that I don’t work on it during the school year! I just get more done with it during the summer months. This is also the biggest reason why my husband doesn’t want me to do summer school. He wants me to get the book done and published. Not because he’s tired of me working on it….okay maybe a little….it takes A LOT to get a book published ready. He wants me to finish it because he believes in me and he believes in what I will accomplish with it.
But beyond all that, my head is floating with a million ideas for stories and things to do. What I really need right now is time to sort through all the words in my head and see what’s what. I have stories. I have poems. I have empowering words to write because that is my purpose on this earth. I must find the time to put all these words on paper and share it with others.
I also have a house to keep, family to love, and friends to visit.
I all this to say I feel very much like the recent storm my sister and I had to ride through coming home from a day with our parents. My mind needs a day of word dumping and sorting. My spirit is running high on these ideas right now. That’s never a bad thing, but if I don’t get it out, my spirit will deflate and I will be disappointed in myself.
Do you ever feel like this? Is your mind so full, so preoccupied it’s hard to focus on the moment you’re in? What do you do to help yourself get through it? I usually have to at least jot a few things down, maybe make a list of what I want to do.
But, I also do my best to give it all to my Creator because without him this all would truly be randomness during as it rains.
